I was shy all through high school and, never let any of the guys I dated go too far with me. It was 4 years that I was single when I thought, maybe it’s because I don’t have sex. I pressured myself into thinking I should just go ahead and, get this over with. I met someone that seemed like a good guy and, ended up being the complete opposite. I didn’t want to have sex with him unless we were in a relationship. We went to hangout one day and, he says “oh shit I forgot a condom.” And I said “I wasn’t planning on having sex this is a big deal to me, I’m not ready for this yet”.
He ended up getting mad at me and I got scared. I didn’t want to lose anyone again so after the fifth time I said no I said “fine! Just get a condom.” Keep in mind we weren’t in a relationship and, never ended up in one. We were on a bed making out for a while when he started taking off my cloths. He ended up putting it inside me and he ended up having a small penis (lol) I didn’t really feel much. I had to fake an orgasm because he started getting mad that I was taking long to cum. At one point though (THIS IS THE IMPORTANT PART LADIES) he wanted to try going in my ass so I thought well fuck I already lost my virginity might as well get this out of the way.
I didn’t like it and HE PUT IT BACK IN MY VAGINA. I wasn’t thinking clearly at the time but later realized how bad it was of him to do that. I’m 20 now and have been suffering from urinary tract infections ever sense he made that mistake (when I was 18). LADIES say no if you don’t want to do it! He’s not worth it if he doesn’t respect you!!! I wish he would have listened to me when I said no. All in all, I’ve been on and off medication for my uti for the past couple of months. By the way, after he did that my first uti was so bad I was urinating blood and, had to go to urgent care.
I hate him more then I can put into words. I wanted to warn any ladies out there who want to lose there virginity. Just be careful please. 1- make sure he wears a condom 2- make sure if you do anal he doesn’t put it back in your vagina 3- if you say no, DON’T GIVE IN!!! This has mentally scarred me for life. It’s made me depressed. It’s made me lose respect for myself. Please do yourself a favor and, think it through whatever it is you are going to do. I say all of this with care.
- Gender: Female
- Age of Virginity Loss: 18
- Current Age: 20
- How would you categorize your story?: Against my will
- Country: USA
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